Why you ask, did this weekend come at such a good time? Well I'm officially on my last nerve. My children have worn me out and used up ALL of my patience. No only that but the Prozac ran out and I haven't had the sweet little miracle pill for over a week and boy is it starting to show. My family will be happy to know that I have refilled my Rx and I will be able to tolerate them again soon! I can handle my children to a certain point. They are boys, they like to wrestle and fight but I cannot handle the squealing and whining that comes along with it. They play and they have the attention span of an ant so I know that my house gets messy. What I cannot stand is when I spend the WHOLE day cleaning and if you stopped by my house, you wouldn't even know it. It still looks like a bomb went off. That has to be the most frustrating thing ever. My husband probably thinks I'm the worlds biggest lazy ass wife and that I don't do a damn thing while he's gone. I know he doesn't think that at all but that's how I feel!
This extreme bitching leads me to my current dilemma. My 9 year old son. I'm 5'3" and 110 lbs. I'm not a big person and he is gaining on me, standing at my shoulders and weighing in at 65 lbs). Today we had a MAJOR blowout and it took all of my strength to take his tantrum on. He was angry that I was making him re clean the bathroom that he did a half assed job on. It would have taken him 5 minutes to fix the things that he missed. Instead he started with the attitude and arguing with me, and after I had had enough I sent him to his room. This is where it got ugly. He went into a total rage, screaming and yelling so loud in my face I though he would burst an artery. I could see the veins popping in his neck. We had a tug-o-war match with his bedroom door (he wanted out and I was trying to keep him in) and when he was too strong for me he came out and I had to physically restrain him and drag him to his room (got a visual yet ?). He is getting strong! Keep in mind that I'm trying my hardest not to laugh at him and this is making him even angrier and even funnier to me. After a few minutes of this he IS NOT calming down and he is getting to the point of hitting me and I warned him that if he didn't calm down and lower his voice that he was going to get smacked. He kept at it and he finally got his cheek thumped and thumped hard. It phased him, but only a little. Long story short it took him a good half hour to calm down and get himself under control, all the while my mind is racing wondering how long I can take his tantrums and how am I going to change this behavior. Our behavior I should say. I don't enjoy physically disciplining my kids and it makes me feel like a shitty parent, but I'm not against it and I will be damned if my kids think that they can talk to me that way and treat me or anyone disrespectfully. I refuse my child to turn into one of these disrespectful little punks that I see all too often.
Sooooo, if there is anyone out there that has any advice for me I would truly appreciate it. For now I'm going to take a much needed break from my family and enjoy my weekend! I will take lots of pictures and post them when I get home.